Since I left my job a year ago, the question of “what do you do?” became my worse nightmare. People determine your worth depending on the title you have and the job you do. I recall many faces that challenged me to explain that I am currently on a quest of finding a new job. The reaction on their face, the pettiness in their eyes and the “so you are a housewife” question they conclude my answer with.
Thinking about the feelings and the energy those conversation have given me. As a proud full-time housewife, I am also studying… constantly trying new thing and trying to understand myself. The value of life with meaningful and mindful moments of motherhood and love.
When it comes to a job again I realized also that i don’t want to be doing one thing of the rest of my life. A friend of mine always introduces me as an artist, which I don’t feel confident with because I don’t do art religiously rather occasionally once in a while. I feel also that restricting my self to one domain or one title, doesn’t give me the flexibility to move from one thing that I enjoy doing today to a new thing that start to be fascinated with tomorrow . I’d rather be a bit of everything. Graphic Designer by major, a photographer by heart, an artist wanna be, a psychology big fan, an interior designer to my new house, a researcher for my Phd degree, a mother to two little gems, a crazy wife to a patient husband, a daughter to supportive parents, a big sister to two siblings and a non-stop learner. I don’t want to stop reading, learning and doing new things in my life.
I don’t want to look back at my life and only see one thing but many flips and turns that I went through. I want to evolve every day, learn from my endless mistakes and cry my emotions proudly anywhere and everywhere (at least I am good at this right now).
To a quest of life (technically to work on final paper)